I rejoined again last evening but could not bring myself to look at my weigh-in starting weight. I don't want to know the bad news...
Because my leader knows me and my past experiences with WW, I had her look at my starting weight and figure my daily points allowance. It didn't change from the last time...that is a "good" thing I guess. I wanted to spare myself the depressing feeling of being a failure and am hoping that given a successful week of being on the program I can go into next week’s meeting, get weighed and have the joy of a successful weight loss.
Another common remark we've all heard is, "What you don't know can't hurt you." Ha! We all know this isn't true... If there were a rattle snake between your sheets and you didn't know it when you got into bed, would it bite you? Oh yeah, you bet it would! However, I am already hurting every time I get dressed up and fix my hair and makeup to go out. I am already hurting when I am not able to do many of the things I was once able to because of my size and the physical shape I am in now. By not knowing that starting number I am not adding salt to the wound... which would hurt a great deal!
So, for now, I do not want to know what my weigh-in weight is but I look forward to seeing it next week with a minus under it.
You have made known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.